Barring some unpacking and some cleaning, I’m finally and completely moved into my new apartment.

I promised myself I wouldn’t oversentimentalize the process, and I think I’ve done a reasonably good job of that. I threw away, sold, or donated a lot of things I’d been holding onto long past their usefulness even as mementos, and I still think this move sets a new record for the least amount of garbage produced and cheap plastic purchased from Target to replace it.

But old habits die hard, and there’s nothing that turns the gears of sentimentality—or at least retrospect, wrapped in a skein of sentimentality and garnished with shavings of nostalgia marinated in Weltschmertz—better than looking at my newly empty old apartment after giving it the most thorough cleaning I’ve ever given anything (at least, thorough by my lazy bachelor standards; execrable by anyone else’s) and knowing that for three years it was my Home with a capital H. Nothing says transition—or ending—quite like a series of empty rooms.

As a kid, I loved the sitcom Growing Pains. The series finale, after several years of Learning Some Important Lessons and Having a Few Laughs Along the Way, hinged on one of many can’t-fail tropes for ending a series: the Seaver family was moving away, leaving the cozy three-walled house where Alan Thicke’s firm but fair patriarch practiced psychology in his home office and the family gathered on the lawn at the end of the theme song every week. When the Seavers relocated, they literally ceased to exist.

In my dim memory of the finale, Seaver daughter Carol, played by Tracy Gold, was the last one to leave the house. (I’m not sure why she got the last shot, and not Mike, or even better, Boner). She looked around the living room, ground zero for so many comic misunderstandings and Very Special Episode third-act denouments, and bid the place goodbye.

That’s kind of how I felt on Sunday night, which I realize makes me a grade-A sap. But that apartment was my homebase for three years, the longest I’ve stayed in one place since I went to college at 19. It was my first legitimately adult apartment—not a dorm room, not shared with a roommate, not a basement. It’s where I finished my thesis. It’s where I peaked as a filmmaker.

So if all this makes me a sap, then bring on the theme song.